Never a Bride's Maid...
So yeah...one of my best friends...actually I'm not sure what to call her anymore. She has dealt such a blow to our friendship that I'm not even sure there's a way to recover it anymore. One of my friends recently got proposed to and of course, asked me to be a bridesmaid. We have been best friends since highschool. While in the past year or so, we haven't seen too much of each other because of work and school, I have always considered her to be my dearest of friends. So of course, I was happy and honored to do so, seeing as we (and two of my other best friends) had made a promise to be bridesmaids for one another. But unfortunately, I was concerned with the choice she was making. I felt she was going too fast. That the man she was engaged to didn't treat her quite as she deserved to be treated. But he seemed to make her happy, so I didn't say anything. I suppose I didn't hide this dislike well however, because not too long ago, she told me she no longer wanted me (and one other fellow friend) as a bridesmaid. She said that she couldn't have me up there with her if I didn't fully support her fiance. Not "us"...HIM. See...I don't support him...because I don't really like him. He's rude, crude, irritating and boorish to me. But he makes her happy, so I was happy to support HER decision...but I guess it wasn't enough. I'm hurt and cut to the deepest part of my heart. Someone I have loved and cherished for almost half my life doesn't feel that I'm necessary to be apart of a big part of her life. I'm trying to be understanding...but I can't. And now I feel that the damage is irreparable. I fear that no matter what, things can never be the same...the Fearsome Foursome...is no more.
I'm sorry Steve...I really am...
posted by Tempest_Lavalle @ 11 Nov 2007 10:05 pm - 0 Comments
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